Wednesday, April 16, 2014

My Time Has Not Yet Come!!

It was Sunday about 2 as Pat and I were driving to Houston....and a calmness came over me that said...."It's going to be ok....IT'S.GOING.TO.BE.JUST.FINE.   I sat there a few minutes before I said Pat....(long pause) and he said" What honey" and I replied Everything's going to be ok.....he of course agreed and I said NO.... "EVERYTHING is going to be ok with my scans!!"  It took an even deeper calmness in my soul....Thank YOU, God!!
Monday comes.....I wait less then 5 minutes after blood work at 6:45 in the am, which is REALLY quick. The scan went fast and I thought....Hmmmm, they didn't find anything or they would have scanned longer (maybe...maybe not.....was it my imagination)?
Monday evening comes and we go to Holy Ghost Catholic Church to hear Father Byron Miller give a presentation/talk. Very good and so glad we went. Jesus said appr. 13 times in John's Gospel that "My Time has Not Yet Come"....and it resonated through my body as if God was saying that to me also.
Tuesday comes, THE DAY to get scan and blood results. I get all the temp, weight stuff out of the way and went right back to see the P.A. and then Dr. Javle. QUICKEST I have got back to the patient room....E.V.E.R.  God knows I am not patient even though I have learned over the last 3 years and 3's all on God's time...not Patty's "Hurry up and do it RIGHT NOW time!! :-)
The P.A. comes in and goes through every word of the report.....explains in deep detail what everything means and also compares it to the last scan I had. She said I am as stable as we can even think. The mass in the liver is lymph node involvement ANYWHERE except some inflamed due to my chronic sinusitis. EVERYTHING IN MY BODY WAS CALM............THANK YOU JESUS!! THANK YOU FATHER!!
Dr. Javle then came in to reiterate what the P.A. said, then said he was so happy with my stability....    He said Dr. Das, the radiation oncologist in Houston who mapped exactly where I was being radiated, was just talking to Dr. Javle about 2 patients with CC. One person who is not doing so well....and then....wellllllllllllll, there's ME.  Stable as any stable could be expected! I wanted to shout and cry at the same time with joy.
Pat and I headed to the movie cinema right after the visit to catch a movie. I saw God's Not Dead and Pat saw a comedy. Great super wonderful movie!! My movie of course got out first so I started walking outside in the crisp air to release some of the good energy that wanted me to just scream outloud that My God is So GREAT!!!!!....I wanted to jump up and down and shout THANK YOU GOD! and then what happens....ROAR by Katy Perry comes on. I am still walking, and I just smile. I felt like it was a God Wink and I so took it all in. I called my friend, Debbie Weiler so she could hear the song playing and revel in the moment with me.
I cannot explain the feeling I have inside of me.....Thanks to God, Thanks for leading me to Texas, Thanks for giving me more time on this earth, just Thank You Jesus......MY time has not yet come!!!
It is 4:41 am on Wednesday morning and we are headed on the road very soon with M. Burgener and will be home close after nightfall.
In the movie I saw,,,two men said several times "God is Good....ALL The Time. And the other man comes back and says "All the Time, God Is Good!!   How so very true!

This is a short post but full of hope, praises to our God, and Thanks to our God for my life. L.I.F.E!  It doesn't any better than this girls life....right here and NOW!

I can't post this without thanking the two Bed & Breakfast Inn's we stay at while in Houston. Thank you to David and Roselyn and Bruce and Deb.......for good food, good conversation, and the good price that we paid for the room!!  ;-)  We love and appreciate you all!!

I will write a little longer after getting home as Pat is chomping at the bit to get started.  Thank you all for the continued prayers and I hope to see most of you at The Relay where I will tell my story.

Love and hugs,

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Flowers, Fresh Grass, and Swingsets.....oh, and Easter Egg Hunts!!

The days have been passing by so seems as if I just got back from MD Anderson. Since my vacations, I have been busy watching grandchildren, playing at the park, riding my bike to town to see Amity (about 10 miles), going to an East Egg Hunt today to watch Braeda  at St. Joe's egg hunt, getting ready for The Relay, and STILL selling books for our Relay For Life team. PLEASE contact me or someone in my family to get a book. We do mail them so if you need one mailed, it's great with me!!
So, soon Pat and I will travel to Houston for scans and bloodwork. We will see Dr. Javle the next morning for the results. I have had different pains here and there...I had a Doppler test in my groin area due to some pain (they were looking for a blockage possibly or clots) but the only thing they found was a slightly enlarged lymph node. They also did a couple a couple x-rays on my hip/pelvis to make sure I didn't have a stress fracture causing the pain but it came back clear. The pain has I guess that is good. And maybe it is normal to have an ache here and there when you have had two different rounds of radiation plus several rounds of chemo.
I read a saying that really hits home..."You never really start living until you are dying"  Wow, how true that is. Or maybe it's the fact that you appreciate the small things in life that before were just another season.....another rainbow, another family dinner. To me, they are all way more meaningful than "before" this cancer journey.
I feel I am just going to Texas with positive thoughts and a calmness that no matter what the PET scan finds, I will be ok. God is with me and whatever happens....happens.   Prayers are encouraged and appreciated!!
Keep you posted after seeing Dr. Javle on Tuesday morning.