Well.....all the sitting around...sleeping....eating red meat....praying....praying more...and then some more...has definately paid off. Although my labwork is not perfect, it is up and rising from last week. Last week~platelets were 71,000. My oncologist was afraid they would plummit even more after my last treatment. That is why I really refrained from doing anything more than going to church Saturday evening. So, today, I waited in the lab until the results were back and the platelets are up to 114,000. It is still not "within range" but it will be two weeks before I start the 3 weeks in a row of chemo (and this headache starts all over again). That's just it....I have had a slight headache and it is the first sign I had when I got the brain bleed. It was a severe headache and so far this one is not....
So.....I will wait for the Anti XA results (which determines my blood clotting factor) and see if my blood is still on the thin side. It takes about two days to get these results back as the blood is sent off to be tested. IF it is still too thin, I will back off even more of my Lovenox shots.
I have had NEW angels in my life this week. One is Reenie Cummins who is my ex-husbands cousin. Her father was a doctor in Massachusetts and he has a son who is also a dr. To make a long story short, there is a neurosurgeon, gastroenterologist, and an oncologist (about to marry into the Cummins family) all in Massachusetts. Then her sister's husband had a liver transplant as Massachusetts General Hospital (known to be one of the best hospitals in the US). So, I feel she has been sent my way to maybe connect me with someone willing to take a closer look at my "monster". It's alot to take in but please pray this is the minute I have been praying for.
There is a new lady at RMH registering people and she was my second "angel" today. Usually I get a young girl who just wants to register me and move me on.....well this lady who just started part time is an A+ in my book! She made me feel welcome and I even gave her my blog address. She is definately a good addition to RMH! I just felt as if she was "sent" to me today when I needed a positive force before my labwork.
As of today, my blog has had 29,473 "hits" in one year. That is crazy to me. So I hope each person who has peeped at my blog, or check it frequently to check up on my health says a prayer each time for me to be healed. Or to find a dr willing to take this monster out of my body!!
As I close, I ask each of you to just LOOK.....LISTEN.....to the beauty God has put in front of us. As I held a grandbaby Sunday night, watching those big snowdrops fall, I teared up from just watching God's beauty. I asked for a nice beautiful snow atleast once this winter and it finally got here on Sunday. After all of my girls left that night, I stood outside just to LISTEN to the sounds of the snow hitting the ground.......these are things alot of people take for granted.
I ask for prayers, thoughts, and more prayers as I head to Houston on Tuesday evening. No matter what, God is right beside me and that is the best feeling I have ever had. No one can take that from me~ Amen!!
P.S. As you can see, I believe in Angels and that God sends them our way to keep us grounded in our faith when we need it most!!
Hugs & Prayers,
Patty
A journey that no one wants to experience but I hope it keeps family & friends up to date on my battle with intrahepatic cholangiocarcinoma (bile duct cancer). Sometimes it's humorous, sometimes it's serious, but most of all, I hope it shows how much God is with me through this journey.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Monday, March 5, 2012
Rest and Renew
The past week has been rougher than usual for Mom. The large drop in her platelets dramatically affects her energy level. She worked a couple half-days after Tuesday, but mostly rested all week. Compounding her tiredness, Mom's Anti-Xa test was higher than preferred, so Dr. Goswami dropped her Lovenox dosage again. Mom can tell her blood is much thinner than usual, since when she gives herself her Lovenox injections, the injection site bleeds; something that is definitely not typical.
Mom will have a CBC tomorrow to check her platelets. Hopefully they're on their way back up. If not, she will likely get her first transfusion of platelets tomorrow. She'll also have her Anti-Xa tested to be sure her blood is clotting better.
By Saturday morning, Mom was feeling more like herself. The girls and I fixed lasagna last night. It is refreshing to have all of us together, and I know Mom enjoys it. A big thanks to Mimi for making dinner for Mom and Pat on Friday evening, and for the awesome cheesecake last night.
Please pray for Mom's continued strength of mind and body. The roller-coaster that is chemo/cancer is so rough on her. And the most intimidating journey is to Houston to get the results of the PET Scan. Please pray that the results are good and that her cancer remains stable.
Thank you so much for your prayers thus far. Without them, God only knows where she would be. :)
Written/Posted by Jenn.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
This is the time I hate!
Waiting.....until I go to Houston. I received my third week of Gemzar in a row and it made my platelets go from 276,000 to 71,000. And that was before they went ahead and gave me the third round of chemo Tuesday so I imagine my platelets are still on their way down. Dr. Dy said he will have me go to the local hospital next Tuesday and do a CBC to see what my platelet count is and if I need to get platelets before going to Houston. I am ALOT uneasy about my Lovenox shots making my blood too thin and getting another brain bleed /or a bleed anywhere internally. I am suppose to rest alot as this will help build my platelets back up. Next Tuesday while at the local hospital, I will also have my blood clotting factor checked to make sure my blood is not too thin.
So......I have went from 110 mph to about 50 mph and I do not like it. A little of it is mental maybe because I am anxious about going to Houston and getting the PET scan. All I can do at this point is pray for strength.
I am used to my bloodwork being so good (and my doctor always comes in to the room all happy and excited because my labwork is usually so good; this week he had a totally different tone). But we just recently went to chemo 3 weeks in a row since I am allergic to the other chemo they like to partner Gemzar with (I'm allergic to Cisplatin). Dr. Dy says you have to get it three weeks in a row to do any good when you get Gemzar by itself.
I have made it past the one year mark of having this ugly monster called intra-hepatic cholangiocarcinoma. It has not been the easiest ride but it could have been so much worse. And, I suppose, someday it could get to the "worse" status.....but until then, I will continue to pray for strength and determination. I will take each day....one at a time....and thank the good Lord every night I lay my head on my pillow at night.
Hugs & Prayers
Patty~
So......I have went from 110 mph to about 50 mph and I do not like it. A little of it is mental maybe because I am anxious about going to Houston and getting the PET scan. All I can do at this point is pray for strength.
I am used to my bloodwork being so good (and my doctor always comes in to the room all happy and excited because my labwork is usually so good; this week he had a totally different tone). But we just recently went to chemo 3 weeks in a row since I am allergic to the other chemo they like to partner Gemzar with (I'm allergic to Cisplatin). Dr. Dy says you have to get it three weeks in a row to do any good when you get Gemzar by itself.
I have made it past the one year mark of having this ugly monster called intra-hepatic cholangiocarcinoma. It has not been the easiest ride but it could have been so much worse. And, I suppose, someday it could get to the "worse" status.....but until then, I will continue to pray for strength and determination. I will take each day....one at a time....and thank the good Lord every night I lay my head on my pillow at night.
Hugs & Prayers
Patty~
Friday, February 24, 2012
Live Like You Were Dying......
Monday was a holiday for me so I decided to call some of "The Beach Girls" to see what trouble could "find us" for the day. We(4 of us) met at 8 am sharp at my house and off we went.......wasn't sure where we were going....at first it was Salem, Illinois but we ended up in Ft. Branch, Indiana. We started out at a cute little country shoppe in Lawrenceville called Frye's Country Gifts. It has been there for YEARS but one of the girls had never been there. From there, we started toward Route 50 when I saw a fire about a mile down a country road. Just like a farmer, I thought we should check it out. It was an old house or barn that was a "controlled burn". We drove by like nosy old women do.....verrrryyy slowly. Then turned around and as we came upon the fire again, I stopped, rolled down my window, motioned for one of the men to come over to my car......I said...Sir, you boys need any help here?....he replied..."I think we got it under control"...(me) "OK...just checking". It was one of those "you just had to be there" moments and the girls with me were about to die from laughing so hard. We went on to Vincennes where we found my mom shopping a bit. We mosied on to Ft. Branch and spent way too much $. Then back to Applebee's for a late lunch. Then on the way home, after bragging all day about the V-8 in my Buick Lucierne, decided to give the girls a taste of the speed under the hood.........so..........65......70....75....80.....85....90....95....100....105.....then 110 mph. The car goes to 140 but hey, just because I am dying doesn't mean I want to scare everybody else to death (my attempt at humor). My car just glided like it was on air. One lady said her car would be shaking like an old unbalanced washing machine!! LMAO!
We had the best time that day....or I did. Since we didn't make it to the beach last summer, this day was kind of a make-up day........when my tumor is gone, I will go back to the beach. It was a great day so thanks to my beach friends!!
I have had treatments for the past two Tuesdays but have not been sleeping well. So the dr lowered my steroid from 8 mg to 4 mg and I felt like a bus ran over me since then. I am upping the steroid back to 8 mg next Tuesday. Give me drugs to sleep but I also need energy to keep my tank from running empty! After my treatment next Tuesday, I will have two weeks off and will be flying to Houston to see Dr. Javle. This is about the time I get weepy and pray 50 times harder that my tumor has not spread not grown. Usually when I get on a plane, it is for a vacation......believe me, I don't call this a vacation. Pat & Jenn (who are the ones going with me this time) know I am quiet, don't want to do a lot but read and pray. It is a stressful time until I hear the words necrosis or no spreading to lymph nodes or anywhere else. So, as I close today, I am telling myself I will have a good weekend and try to let the next couple of weeks before Houston fly by like a whirlwind. God Bless~
Patty
We had the best time that day....or I did. Since we didn't make it to the beach last summer, this day was kind of a make-up day........when my tumor is gone, I will go back to the beach. It was a great day so thanks to my beach friends!!
I have had treatments for the past two Tuesdays but have not been sleeping well. So the dr lowered my steroid from 8 mg to 4 mg and I felt like a bus ran over me since then. I am upping the steroid back to 8 mg next Tuesday. Give me drugs to sleep but I also need energy to keep my tank from running empty! After my treatment next Tuesday, I will have two weeks off and will be flying to Houston to see Dr. Javle. This is about the time I get weepy and pray 50 times harder that my tumor has not spread not grown. Usually when I get on a plane, it is for a vacation......believe me, I don't call this a vacation. Pat & Jenn (who are the ones going with me this time) know I am quiet, don't want to do a lot but read and pray. It is a stressful time until I hear the words necrosis or no spreading to lymph nodes or anywhere else. So, as I close today, I am telling myself I will have a good weekend and try to let the next couple of weeks before Houston fly by like a whirlwind. God Bless~
Patty
Costa Rica in Pictures....2012
The view from our hotel each night....
Craig & Missy Bost. Craig sells furnaces from Benoist to our Agency.
What a great couple!!
Doc & Elvira Dolic
When Pat worked for the police in Bosnia about 14-15 years ago, this couple was in a refugee camp.
Pat was actually at this camp when Doc & Elvira were there and of course they didn't know each other. Since then, they have became American citizens and now own the own heating/ac company. Truly an inspiring story to hear them tell it. Pat and Doc hit it off immediately as Pat knew some of the Bosnian language after all these years.
Pat n Pat
This was a long walkway that went from the resort to the pier. Very pretty in the day but kinda scary at night.
View from our room. Just beautiful to look out at the hotel/ocean every morning/night.
A view from the waters edge.
This isn't the exact 50 foot yacht that we rented but close to it. This was one of the highlights for me.
The pier
The flowers and bushes were just beautiful. I could have taken 25 pictures just as pretty as this one.
If we were not shopping, this is what almost everyone did during the day. I might have been the only non alcoholic drinker there. Boy was there ever alot of good laughs.....
This "pest" was not scared of my camera at all. I got pretty close to it and it just looked at me.
A beautiful view of the Los Suenos Marriott Resort.
Elvira, me, Dena Hall, and Missy Bost before loading for the evening cruise. Dena's husband also works for Benoist in the warehouse at Mt. Vernon. He and Craig (Missy's husband) work together.
Pat on the front of the boat as it is moving at about 30 miles an hour. He was weaving and trying to keep his footage. I told him to get his butt off the deck and that he is NOT Leonardo DeCaprio!!
Pat, Tony Hall, Doc, and another man that I cannot remember his name....dangit! We were in town shopping and the men would stop and have a drink at every open bar....ok...so did the girls. Me? Gingerale please ;-(
Mr. Jack Benoist, the owner of the company, picked this spot as our night out with a magnificent view. This man (who you can just look at and tell he has a heart of gold) puts alot of thought into what to do, where to eat, and what the grand finale will be the night before departing Costa Rica. This year, we had the most fantastic fireworks display you could ever ask for. Even the people from St. Louis said it was way better than their fireworks display.
Missy Bost and Pat on the "night out" at our fancy restuarant with Jack Benoist.
Wonderful food, wonderful friends, wonderful time!
Big Bertha at the swim up bar waiting on my peach smoothie. Even at $6.50 a piece, they were sooo good!!
This is Mr. Jack Benoist. Owner of Benoist Furnace Co. I think I can read people pretty well and I knew when I saw him, he really cares about his employees and the companies that buy furnaces from him. There were appr. 70 people on this trip put on by Jack and it was wonderful. It makes me jealous of all the other vacations he has taken people on because NO ONE had a bad word to say about any of the trips he has sponsored or about him!! They all had great respect for him and genuinely like him as a boss AND a friend.
Doc & Elvira Dolic. The Americans from Bosnia. We hope to meet up with them in about a month for supper. When Pat and I were so sick on the trip back (at the airport) Doc carried our bags, got our luggage, etc and was like a little father to us. Elvira played the little mother getting Pat goldfish and crackers to nibble on. I will have to say this is one of the best trips (excluding the ones I take with my girls) that I have ever been on. It was the people who made us feel so welcome. Pat and I were the "new ones" in the bunch but we just fit in like a glove. They asked us to come back next year and we are considering it IF my health is good enough. It is a 9 day cruise on a 5500 passenger cruise line.
Monday, February 13, 2012
The days ahead......
Had the most wonderful trip with about 68 other people in Costa Rica. Food was good....non alcoholic peach smoothies were good.....room was wonderful.....50 foot yatch sunset cruise was amazing. The white water rafting was terribly scary.....but they were the nicest people in our group of friends....it made the trip EXTRA worthwhile! The night before returning home, Pat was sick with chills and stomach ache. Then about 9pm, I got the gutt ache that almost crippled us both. We did not sleep all night due to the pain. The next day going to the airport was NOT fun. Pat was throwing up and I had the scoots.....about 36 times in 24 hours. We were both worried we were getting dehydrated but if I even sipped on water, it was out the back door in 15 minutes. It is now Monday evening and Pat still gets the gutt ache when he eats much. I am almost all better. They called it "Montezuma's Revenge".....felt more like a devils pitchfork in my belly!
Today was a holiday for me so I picked up little Braeda at 2 today instead of 4 (I do this every Monday just to have my very own time with her). Amy or Rylan usually show up about 5:30. Tomorrow evening, I will travel to Leslie's house to watch McKenna so Leslie can go to an evening class and I can have some time with JUST McKenna.
We are really doing well at selling our raffle tickets and we really do appreciate all of you who have bought or if you want a raffle ticket (or two), get ahold of me. They are ten dollars and it is for a four night stay at The Fountains Resort in Orlando Florida. It is a $1200 value and the room sleeps up to 6.
We also still have T shirts if anyone is interested. Anyone interested in being on our team, please call us. We will never turn anyone down!
You know, I have a girl that has been on my mind this past week. Her name was Brandy Wills. She was younger than me and had alot smaller children than me and she had lung cancer. I followed her Caring Bridge even though I did not personally know her. She passed away last week and it really saddens me that this young family has to go through this. I know God is with them right now!
You know.....I had to make my decision (Feb. 2011) as to whether I thought I was going to be able to go on the Costa Rica trip last week. Since Feb. 2011, I have had blood clots & surgery to remove them, a cerebral brain bleed (stroke), and more blood clots that we stopped with blood thinners. But when it came down to it, I was able to go and stayed right up with the crowd. I was exhausted at the end of the day but God blessed me with good health and I thank him for that! Some people thought I shouldn't go...or maybe I should think twice in case my health was not good enough. Guess I showed them!
In just about exactly a month I will make the trip to Houston. After bloodwork and a PET scan, the next day I will see Dr. Javle and an radiation oncologist which I have never spoke to before. Since my tumor hasn't shrunk (NOR GROWN...thank you God!!) in one year, Dr Javle told me a year ago we would give chemo a year to work and if it didn't we would try something else. I still might get chemo but they just might add the radiation.....I will of course keep you posted. Remember, my tumor is slow to grow, slow to shrink.
I called another Dr I have found to be a well known doctor with Cholangiocarcinoma in New York, NY. Jenn has contacted them for me as I really didn't want to go unless they saw my scans, biopsy reports, etc. THEN, if he thinks he can do surgery, I might think about flying out. I have had 3 doctors say no so why would this man say yes? Well....he is known for some of the riskiest surgeries of the stomach/liver. His name is Dr. Kato. It's alot to think about. I am not a gambler.....I cherish every day I get to spend with my family AND I feel pretty good so something inside of me tells me to just be happy with what God has given me so far and be thankful.
Oh, one more thing. Jenn had a GIRLS ONLY brunch Saturday for family and close friends. I had the best time that morning and Jenn made a killer quiche and fruit/yogurt cups. My daughter did not learn how to cook from me! But Jenn, Thanks! Every minute I get to spend with my girls fills my heart up with joy.
Of all the 42 followers on here, I guarantee you that you do not fully appreciate your family until it is your turn to get into the batters box with an illness as rare and serious as mine.
February 29 is Rare Disease Day. Maybe I will call in sick (if it's a work day) and eat LOTS of chocolate and ice cream....to feed my cancer....right Jenn!! :-}
God bless you all and keep you.
Hugs & Prayers~
Patty
Today was a holiday for me so I picked up little Braeda at 2 today instead of 4 (I do this every Monday just to have my very own time with her). Amy or Rylan usually show up about 5:30. Tomorrow evening, I will travel to Leslie's house to watch McKenna so Leslie can go to an evening class and I can have some time with JUST McKenna.
We are really doing well at selling our raffle tickets and we really do appreciate all of you who have bought or if you want a raffle ticket (or two), get ahold of me. They are ten dollars and it is for a four night stay at The Fountains Resort in Orlando Florida. It is a $1200 value and the room sleeps up to 6.
We also still have T shirts if anyone is interested. Anyone interested in being on our team, please call us. We will never turn anyone down!
You know, I have a girl that has been on my mind this past week. Her name was Brandy Wills. She was younger than me and had alot smaller children than me and she had lung cancer. I followed her Caring Bridge even though I did not personally know her. She passed away last week and it really saddens me that this young family has to go through this. I know God is with them right now!
You know.....I had to make my decision (Feb. 2011) as to whether I thought I was going to be able to go on the Costa Rica trip last week. Since Feb. 2011, I have had blood clots & surgery to remove them, a cerebral brain bleed (stroke), and more blood clots that we stopped with blood thinners. But when it came down to it, I was able to go and stayed right up with the crowd. I was exhausted at the end of the day but God blessed me with good health and I thank him for that! Some people thought I shouldn't go...or maybe I should think twice in case my health was not good enough. Guess I showed them!
In just about exactly a month I will make the trip to Houston. After bloodwork and a PET scan, the next day I will see Dr. Javle and an radiation oncologist which I have never spoke to before. Since my tumor hasn't shrunk (NOR GROWN...thank you God!!) in one year, Dr Javle told me a year ago we would give chemo a year to work and if it didn't we would try something else. I still might get chemo but they just might add the radiation.....I will of course keep you posted. Remember, my tumor is slow to grow, slow to shrink.
I called another Dr I have found to be a well known doctor with Cholangiocarcinoma in New York, NY. Jenn has contacted them for me as I really didn't want to go unless they saw my scans, biopsy reports, etc. THEN, if he thinks he can do surgery, I might think about flying out. I have had 3 doctors say no so why would this man say yes? Well....he is known for some of the riskiest surgeries of the stomach/liver. His name is Dr. Kato. It's alot to think about. I am not a gambler.....I cherish every day I get to spend with my family AND I feel pretty good so something inside of me tells me to just be happy with what God has given me so far and be thankful.
Oh, one more thing. Jenn had a GIRLS ONLY brunch Saturday for family and close friends. I had the best time that morning and Jenn made a killer quiche and fruit/yogurt cups. My daughter did not learn how to cook from me! But Jenn, Thanks! Every minute I get to spend with my girls fills my heart up with joy.
Of all the 42 followers on here, I guarantee you that you do not fully appreciate your family until it is your turn to get into the batters box with an illness as rare and serious as mine.
February 29 is Rare Disease Day. Maybe I will call in sick (if it's a work day) and eat LOTS of chocolate and ice cream....to feed my cancer....right Jenn!! :-}
God bless you all and keep you.
Hugs & Prayers~
Patty
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Leaving tomorrow for my trip.....
Pat & I will head to St. Louis after work to spend the night in St. Louis as our plane leave at like 6 am Friday am. We have a lay over in Atlanta for about an hour before a 4 hour flight to Costa Rica. Chemo went good this past Tuesday and all labwork still looks great according to Dr. Dy.
The only plans written in stone once we get to Costa Rica is visiting a coffee plantation and butterfly farm. It is an all day tour that includes lunch and a stop in a village to do some local shopping. Pretty sure I have Pat convinced to do the Zip Line that is 3.5 Kilometers. Weather looks pretty good with highs being around 80 during the day and 60 at night. 20% chance of rain about every day we are there....I think that is pretty normal for the rainforest.
Feeling a little yucky today but I am sure it is just the chemo churning my belly a little. It will pass in the next day or two.
Eucharisto is a latin word that means "to give thanks" that I ran across in a book I have been reading. When I pray every morning and night and times in between, I give thanks for many things. I have quit asking God for so much and just thank him for what he has given me so far. I still ask that he shrink my tumor or atleast let me live a while longer to enjoy a blond headed Zuber grandbaby (no, there's not one in the oven) and maybe one from Samantha some day.....Leslie is expecting a little boy in four more months....I look forward to all of the celebrations life gives me and God allows to happen by keeping me on the "straight road". I don't like the bumpy curvy roads......you never know whats around the corner. You know what bothers me the most, if something happens to me, my children will be parentless. That just makes my heart ache!! I do have four of the strongest girls around and they are survivors........it is still the hardest part of this whole journey!
As I look ahead at the trip to Houston next month, I just ask God to keep the peace I feel inside right now (and have felt since this journey began). Its been almost a year since the diagnosis and some CC patients never make it to a year....some are younger than me....alot are older. I thank God every day for letting me stay on this earth to make a difference. I thank God I am healthy enough to go on this trip....and the one to Houston next month. This journey could make a wrong turn at any moment......or would it be such a bad turn if it meant spending eternity in Heaven. It is alot to think about and most people don't think about it until they hear the word CANCER! Seems I'm getting a little deep here so I will move on.
Leslie cut my hair pretty short last night....I like it but Pat does not..... My hair was so dry and brittle probably from the chemo so it needed to be whacked. I just hope it grows or the next time I will have to have it shaved to the scalp.
I had lunch with my mom this week. She looked so pretty in her red shirt. We ate at the sr center. She has lost 20 pounds and is really looking nice. Keep it up, momma! I would also like to ask for prayers for one of my aunts having surgery this week. Just that she has a speedy recovery. They are very private people so that is all I will say.
A shout out to my sister Lisa who usually takes her lunch to come see me at chemo and spend an hour with me. It makes the time go by alot quicker and since she lives up by Shelbyville, I don't see her as often as when she lived 3 miles away from me. My other sister, Sarah, bought her dog a jacket to wear that has something about beating liver cancer. It has a green ribbon on it and is cute as can be!
We have the raffle tickets made up for the 4 night 5 day stay at The Fountains Resort in Orlando Florida. $10 each and just minutes from Walt Disney World. It is a $1200 value donated by my brother and his wife, Larry & Sheila Stoltz. Just get ahold of one of the girls to buy your raffle tickets!! Come on, it supports the local Walk & Roll in Richland County and the American Cancer Society.
I will log off for now and blog mid week to let you know how the trip is going. God bless you all and keep you!
Hugs & Prayers,
Patty
The only plans written in stone once we get to Costa Rica is visiting a coffee plantation and butterfly farm. It is an all day tour that includes lunch and a stop in a village to do some local shopping. Pretty sure I have Pat convinced to do the Zip Line that is 3.5 Kilometers. Weather looks pretty good with highs being around 80 during the day and 60 at night. 20% chance of rain about every day we are there....I think that is pretty normal for the rainforest.
Feeling a little yucky today but I am sure it is just the chemo churning my belly a little. It will pass in the next day or two.
Eucharisto is a latin word that means "to give thanks" that I ran across in a book I have been reading. When I pray every morning and night and times in between, I give thanks for many things. I have quit asking God for so much and just thank him for what he has given me so far. I still ask that he shrink my tumor or atleast let me live a while longer to enjoy a blond headed Zuber grandbaby (no, there's not one in the oven) and maybe one from Samantha some day.....Leslie is expecting a little boy in four more months....I look forward to all of the celebrations life gives me and God allows to happen by keeping me on the "straight road". I don't like the bumpy curvy roads......you never know whats around the corner. You know what bothers me the most, if something happens to me, my children will be parentless. That just makes my heart ache!! I do have four of the strongest girls around and they are survivors........it is still the hardest part of this whole journey!
As I look ahead at the trip to Houston next month, I just ask God to keep the peace I feel inside right now (and have felt since this journey began). Its been almost a year since the diagnosis and some CC patients never make it to a year....some are younger than me....alot are older. I thank God every day for letting me stay on this earth to make a difference. I thank God I am healthy enough to go on this trip....and the one to Houston next month. This journey could make a wrong turn at any moment......or would it be such a bad turn if it meant spending eternity in Heaven. It is alot to think about and most people don't think about it until they hear the word CANCER! Seems I'm getting a little deep here so I will move on.
Leslie cut my hair pretty short last night....I like it but Pat does not..... My hair was so dry and brittle probably from the chemo so it needed to be whacked. I just hope it grows or the next time I will have to have it shaved to the scalp.
I had lunch with my mom this week. She looked so pretty in her red shirt. We ate at the sr center. She has lost 20 pounds and is really looking nice. Keep it up, momma! I would also like to ask for prayers for one of my aunts having surgery this week. Just that she has a speedy recovery. They are very private people so that is all I will say.
A shout out to my sister Lisa who usually takes her lunch to come see me at chemo and spend an hour with me. It makes the time go by alot quicker and since she lives up by Shelbyville, I don't see her as often as when she lived 3 miles away from me. My other sister, Sarah, bought her dog a jacket to wear that has something about beating liver cancer. It has a green ribbon on it and is cute as can be!
We have the raffle tickets made up for the 4 night 5 day stay at The Fountains Resort in Orlando Florida. $10 each and just minutes from Walt Disney World. It is a $1200 value donated by my brother and his wife, Larry & Sheila Stoltz. Just get ahold of one of the girls to buy your raffle tickets!! Come on, it supports the local Walk & Roll in Richland County and the American Cancer Society.
I will log off for now and blog mid week to let you know how the trip is going. God bless you all and keep you!
Hugs & Prayers,
Patty
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